old chevrolets.

            I went to this student design meeting yesterday (for the free pizza) and during introductions, we went around the room saying our 1. Name and 2. Top item on our bucket list.

            I sat there listening to “Go to Europe” (Been there) “Learn to surf” (Currently wearing a surfing bro-tank… Done that) “Scuba dive” (I hate snorkeling) “Go cliff jumping” (That guy must not get out much) and “Skinnydip in the ocean” (Check).

            I was feeling pretty blessed to have experienced a lot of what other people could only hope for. It’s never enough to settle, though; a person will always want more. How am I supposed to tell the class what I want most in life, when I'm not even sure myself?

            How can you even define “want”? You want that hot girl in class, you want Madden ‘13, you want both your parents to live forever, you want to win your game this Saturday, you want friendship and acceptance, you want to sleep in. It’s so vague, such a widely used word with so much meaning.

            Whenever I notice 11:11pm, all I can think is, who knows what they really want?

            With a lot of things, I think people blur the line between “wanting it” and “working for it.” I mean, when it comes to sports, you sure don’t train for second place. Yeah, the desire to succeed must be there, but putting in the effort to achieve success is vital.

            Sometimes that’s not enough though. No matter what you do, there will always be some things you cannot have. I know too many kids who have lost their dads, or moms, or somebody extremely close to them. Stay strong, guys, you’ll see ‘em in heaven. You will.

            Big shoutout today to Osama for making that even more true.

            See, it’s so hard to explain the word “want” to someone when your definition is so broad. Work for what you can, believe in what’s out of your control, and realize what’s worth it to you.

            Once you got that down, get back to me. Cause I don’t think anyone human has it all figured out yet.

            Just in case anyone was curious. My answer was, “Hi I’m Amanda and before I die, I will own an old chevy pickup truck.”