idk why ok?

The subconscious is the strongest, most underrated part of us. It makes us want and avoid things for reasons unapparent to even ourselves because of experiences we’ve had but cannot connect to the situation at hand. We underestimate its ability because it’s a mental process we're completely unaware of.

Do you ever hear the question “Why?” (maybe from others, maybe in your head) only to find yourself stuttering and blurting out irrelevant answers just because you don’t know how to explain yourself?

Like in middle school when a girl would ask her justin-beiber-looking boyfriend “why do you like me?” just for confirmation that she’s doing something right, but bieber doesn’t know how to answer cause 1.) that’d be soft and 2.) you can’t put that into words. Like in your soccer game when you have an opportunity to score off of a penalty kick and you’ve had that shot down with either foot since you completed 7^th grade but when the whistle blows you still get nervous not from the crowd but because you want the respect and happiness of your teammates and now it’s a question of acceptance rather than game score. Like when you’d rather say no to an opportunity than to say yes and be inadequate. Like when you feel the need to compete with others in order to succeed. Like when you just don’t know why you hate the Vikings so much, you just do.

The subconscious is this evil thing that takes all the little pieces of our background and saves them for later when it can maliciously affect our choices without us knowing the source of our feelings.

There are people out there that have seen things, maybe in war or maybe in an under-developed city or maybe in their own home, so that they are changed to the point of trauma. There are people who have been so physically or emotionally harmed that they won’t be able to start over, so hard as they try. Then there are everyday cases where we just have no clue why we feel what we feel, whether it’s something we think we need, or something we avoid with everything we’ve got.

To all those motivational posters out there encouraging us to believe that “Anything Is Possible!” …you can’t beat the subconscious. Those walls are impossible to break down.


Also hey just go listen to this song because ugh so talented